Raise your glass if you're wrong in all the right ways

Same same, but different

2012-01-31T22:59:00.003+08:00

#20factsaboutme

1. Once I set my mind to get going, nothing can stop me.
2. I'm SUPER stubborn.
3. I only started studying for exams when I'm 16.
4. I've a tattoo, intending to get more.
5. I used to have real bad temper and now, I hardly flare at anything.
6. I don't visit people's Facebook profile at all, maybe except one!
7. The wall in my room is red.
8. I'm the youngest at home and the only daughter.
9. I've alot of friends, handful good friends, few best friends.
10. I keep everything to myself nowadays.
11. I'm truly happy with life right now.
12. The person I loved the deepest make me insane.
13. I love waterproof shoes
14. Im a "quick" person in everything
15. I love @ladygaga
16. My hangout spots must be somewhere with little people or with nature nowadays.
17. Im not suppose to drink, it'll cause me death
18. I change rapidly
19. Movies have became one of my favorite activity to do
20. People whom I love are usually those I can behave like a kid to!

SIAN

2012-01-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

No intention to lose my head
So instead of grumbing about my studies, (like for every exam period) I'm gonna talk about.. -i don't know?- see how my fingers and mind coordinate lor.

So all my friends had been hearing me said "Sorry, busy." I guess people really think that I'm bullshitting uh. I shall void what I tank last year and all the shit that came together, but ever since 2012, I didn't had real proper sleep and meals on alternate days basis. If you're wondering why I don't complain on twitter anymore, cause I see no point. I'm getting sick of people complaining/being angsty/emo every single fucking dayyyzxz, and negative begets negative. Yeah, building inner self, its not a facade, its being strong and stronger. I don't even bother to tell people I'm stress, cause eventually I've to manage it all by myself.

This make me conclude a point that I'm officially independent and can't be bothered to waste a single min of life. My closer friends who are wondering why I keep such a tight mouth about everything of myself recently, you got your answer now.

However, thank god I've my baby with me on daily basis, even not physically but whatsapply :) k, abrupt end.

P/S: what a bullshit post. nnh.

Stressed

2012-01-15T15:11:00.002+08:00

Ranger on?

Back on a point whereby I'm tired of school work. One result links to another and I just can't give up can I? If you're wondering why the hell I've time to write out a blogpost instead of studying is because I'm burnout. It is not even exams period, maybe lots of submission but I'm totally burnout just studying for one test. I realised when you do well for a part only result in you burning more of yourself for further parts.

Sometimes I wish I can just fuck things up, lead a fucked life and wells, just be happy? I don't really need results to be happy right? But maybe thats the problem with self expectation, I don't let things run if I can do it well. Ok, I don't even know what the shit am I ranting right now anymore. Time for a break, I need it so bad.

First reflection of 2012.

2012-01-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

My best friend in life and I in our childish act.
I'm not gonna address what exactly happened, so if you do have my path, most probably you get a rough idea of it. Anyway, to be honest, I'm disappointed, like my dream was let down by factors. But from this matter, I realised how spoilt I am, how stubborn I can really be and I've to learn that not everything in life goes my way. There are really some things that I can't control and if I'm gonna dwell on it, that will just be all I will be in life. I'm not gonna scream unfair, cause I'm fortunate enough. I'm not gonna criticise any shit in this society, because well, this is reality. Neither am I gonna affect my emotions or attitude, cause this year, I only have the intention to improve myself and to put things in the best of place. This do begin with the right attitude, no?

From this, no matter how much it cost my parents both financially and mentally, they always (without failed) give it to me, without a second word or complain. I'm a blessed kid so I've to learn, to learn to be better and to develop something within - Strength.

From this, I learnt. Suck it up and see more of the world.
Life goes on.

P/S: Day 11, still happy :)

faith and hope.

2012-01-04T20:47:00.003+08:00

How do I choose between my head and heart?
Hello, a blog post that is not gonna any sense, this will be the one. So, welcome 2012. I read somewhere about how people think that it is just a new year, nothing is gonna change, you can't be happy all year long, am I gonna go all out against those theory. God path your way, but he also path your attitude.

A new year is a new chance to be, to get things in place again. I'm just gonna lead it my way instead of letting things lead me along, what about you? 2011 was such a bitch that it built me stronger, if you're wondering "what the fuck exactly this girl been through" I been through 3 blows in 2mths that whacked my family upside down, with my exams going on and at the same time, someone I love deeply made me realise I finally lost it.

Lucky as always, I've my friends picking me up along the way, my family being strong for each other. I can't explain a love like ours and I realise how life can be beautiful in the simplest way.

I'll just keep getting better this year, and attitude is the key.

My journey in CCHY

2011-12-30T19:09:00.005+08:00

Hello so while I'm dying my hair, I shall spend this time to write about an interesting 5 years of my life. It is definitely less chaotic than those naughty kids but definitely much worse than those good ones. Throughout my years in CCHY, I honestly never expect myself to transform, like transformer for real.

Anyway so let's start on my journey.

Secondary 1.
I started off as a good kid before I got bullied (yes wtf u must be thinking). For the first half year of secondary 1 was damn bad cause I got bullied on daily basis by some secondary 2 kids that decided to "Siam" me whenever they see me now. Anyway, after first half year, I started getting into trouble that is unnecessary. Seeing the DM on weekly basis, few incident I remember the most is getting chased out of class by relief teacher, making Mrs Peck angry on monthly basis, hurling vulgarities at teacher and shouting "sway ah" during assembly so loudly that I'm being called out to stand at the second floor :( but one thing for sure, I always manage to get myself out after every single trouble (so that the teachers won't call my parents) my results was like just pass for everything HAHAHAH ohya, I was also chosen to be prefect once I entered school but I decided to just disappear cause I don't wanna be. And, I also met two person that I really, even till now, am grateful to know them. Miss Wing and Danielle Zheng.

Secondary 2.
I really cut down alot of discipline nonsense but I'm still a problematic kid whereby now and then I'll make some teachers angry for no reason. I think it is also this year whereby my attire started to be funny. And the teacher I fear most is Mr mah, not funny when he punished us to walk around the school and do stupid things. Ohya, and I'm being (caught) asked to stay back after school every single day after school by Alina Khaw to do my homework Zzz but who knows now she is someone I poured my heart out to right? Also, Grace Tong, whom I chance upon to know.

Secondary 3.
It is a year which I really did stupid things and got alot of people worried. Worse, my result went all the way down for mid sem till the extent that my dad issued me a warning. The thing I remember most clearly is art lesson, Mrs Peck is really so patience with me on weekly basis. All I did every single lesson was to tell her I don't wanna do anything, leave me alone and she'll encourage me that I can do it and to persereve. Oh I think sec 3 is also the
year whereby I almost land my hand on one of the teachers when she pulled my uniform. *shrug*

Secondary 4.
Wake up, N lvl year cannot play anymore. I finally started studying (which I nv did before in my 15years) and I actually studied harder than for O level. No pain, no gain. Second for N level *wink* anyway I didn't expect that, I was still telling my parents "I really hope I get 6pts and that's enough" oh and my attire start to get even messier. I mean, who cares right? (the discipline community cares only)

Secondary 5.
A year which i dont look forward to as my really close friends have all graduated. Got suspended on the first day of school, almost got suspended on the 2nd day. Then got into some nonsense somewhere near O level which I'm lucky to have teachers helping me. That was a year I really enjoyed every touching moment I've with my B class since secondary 1. We're such a unique class, one that people won't forget. We saw each other change and we grew up as one. I also met someone that really changed me alot, way more than I expected. Still, I give thanks. Ohya, and the vulgarities with teacher still didn't stop but only to two. (my two art teachers Zzz...) Anyway I ended secondary school with an alright result and land myself in the best poly of the east ^^ hahahahaha

Kk think thats about all.
Thanks for sending people into my life to wake me up every now and then.
Thanks for sending the most awesome people into my life, friends that I'll keep.
Thanks for sending me a godmum, always grateful.
Thanks for sending -.
Thanks for sending a lovely old lady that is young at heart to me, Mrs Ng.
:)

And I can't probably ask for more..

2011-12-30T13:52:00.003+08:00

Friends.

:'(

2011-12-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

快点回来好吗？我好想你..

Tired, so tired.

2011-11-20T19:22:00.002+08:00

Am I..the type for books?
That down feeling whenever I start to communicate it again.
Is life just about this all, right now?
Is school, studies just everything I wanna/can do?
Is this the place I wanna be? What I want for the future?
A life of my own, I wish for one.
Had been feeling sick of life since long ago.

When everything doesn't remind anymore, because you finally realised..
she is just not the right one, anymore.

A volatile relationship

2011-11-18T23:12:00.001+08:00

Mind over heart ; heart over mind.
To push myself away, because you never stay.
Back and fro, how long more?
Protect of my heart, thats all I can do.
This is real, we're real.
But, you know you're my only poison left.
This relationship can't stand a second deep scar,
I've got to push away.

A volatile relationship, not for the faint hearted.

Pumped up kicks!

2011-11-13T10:03:00.001+08:00

And it is a life changing moment.........

I've changed, yet again.

生命

2011-11-10T16:20:00.003+08:00

What is life to you?
What do you resolve your life around?

When we were kids, toys.
How about when we're a teenager? Love, studies, friends or family.

From 13-19,
Studies from nothing to something.
-I used to not care, at all. If I do well, then I'm lucky, if I don't, its fine. However, as I grow older, I realised the importance of it, from dislike to like, from doing for the seek to doing because I love it.

I've learnt to love what I'm doing instead of doing what I love. Workload, such a good place to drown whenever vexed.

Friends from everything to something.
-It is not a bad thing that I changed, friends are significant, close ones. They're my best moral support, always, in good and bad times. But there is a limit, cause I've other components of my life to take care of,

but still, thanks for doing me good.

Family from something to everything.
-As I face more things everyday, I begin to realize the place of comfort is home. Just a good meal or little chats, it made me realize that there're nothing more than family love. The world can dump you down, family will hold you up.

Love.
-This part of me, I've no answer yet.

Myself.
-Self love, I mastered it.
If it is to be, it is up to me.

For you, have you ever thought what is important to you?

依然愛你 :)

2011-10-26T15:51:00.002+08:00

我不像從前的自己　你也有點不像你但在我眼中你的笑依然的美麗 :)

Baby, take a chance on me :)

2011-10-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

I'm young, I've fun, I live once :D

2011-10-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

My precious hair transformed....from
This.....
to this.......
and finally, this! :D

So I was bored and I decided why not lets try out bangs on me, since i've been having long fringe for 7years, so I took a scissors and snipped my fringe w/o thinking by myself, it turned out funny and I just look into the mirror laughing, which makes me happyyyy for quite sometime HAHAHAHAHA... and finally I've decided enough laughters and off I went to my hairstylist for a proper cut.

Now my fringe is short, but I'll style it. Love me, don't you? I bring happiness :)

Baby

2011-10-18T20:14:00.001+08:00

I love you though you're ugly :P

but you're still my most adorable one and only.

Oddy complete me :)

2011-10-16T00:02:00.001+08:00

And I label 15/10/2011,
Awesome day :)

最後一次

2011-10-09T18:31:00.001+08:00

Painful, but love it.

Wedding dress.

2011-10-09T18:10:00.003+08:00

uh uh sioh
My family :)
sis in lawwww mama :)
papa :D
My pretty cruzzie
babyboy :)
My mama and papa super cuteeee no? :)
My best cruzzie!
Sis in lawwww
Yesterday was my 2nd uncle's wedding, was photographer for the engagement. Fyi, yours truly wore a dress ^^ One of the few weddings I really enjoyed, food and company was good:)And I really felt maybe I should get married too ROFL.

Dreams, how do you decode them? Rarely had dreams, or do I not remember them. Had one just now, could remember certain scenarios quite clearly, the people in them. Important ones, I do miss.

Aye Captain!

2011-10-06T19:24:00.002+08:00

Poison

Yesterday clubbing session with my mates ended up awesome, or rather I really met nice guys on earth. First experience at butter, didn't expect it to be this awesome anyway. Thank god for friends, thank god for awesome people! :D

My 1st ink.

2011-10-06T19:18:00.001+08:00

♥ More than meet the eyes

Sometimes love just isn't enough.

2011-10-03T03:26:00.002+08:00

Now is now♥

Safeguarding you, like I used to.
Getting near yet not beyond the line; our characters always end up leading to quarrels.
Special still, just different importances, always will.
Be fine soon, love.

More to it.

2011-09-30T03:06:00.002+08:00

So, what is it about?
Human.
There're so much more to each and everyone of us, by looking on the surface, we neglected the stories behind. People bear alot more than others' ever know, we can't judge just with visuals, and we can't feel enough even with what we heard and see. Life just isn't simple, but that doesn't mean we should live it with negativity. Let life kick your ass, thats the way to get stronger and to improve.

Strong, I'm getting real strong :)

Oddy-love

2011-09-30T02:50:00.002+08:00

Oddy 1st Chivas :)
Grateful for them!
Accompanying the baby to study sometimes felt like a bliss, everything done with her is. Like I know at least I've someone in my life that won't give up on me. I love you BB =)

Met up with the BreastFriend.PooSai too, glad that we still have so much to talk to each other about, heehee.. Has been spending alot of time with Oddy, Party world + Movie + Supper + Pub. Awww, my life is awesome!!!

I'm lovin' you tonight

2011-09-27T03:02:00.001+08:00

♥

Misery

2011-09-26T16:24:00.002+08:00

The title of this post.
People, at least from what I see, they enjoy having these moments.
Pain, tears and all poison that is available, they felt alive.
One day, they'll be overflooded by it,
and finally, they'll be died.
Side note:
I'm freaking soft hearted.

Stupid F1

2011-09-25T22:30:00.001+08:00

Pretty Ox..

Irrelevant:
Officially, JEALOUS :(

SWAG

2011-09-22T20:36:00.003+08:00

I love my TAEYANG hoodie:)
HEALTHY LIFESTYLE DAY 3!
If anyone is wondering why the sudden health conscious, cause yours truly is afraid to die + just wanna slim down more.My phone is so quiet today, too boring. I've big plans coming up and I do hope it worked out. School, I'm so sick of school though I'm having holidays, wish that I don't have to return ever again.

Troubles, worries..it just keep coming in
YET
C is being positive every single day :)

Life is a cup of coffee :)

2011-09-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

As I grow older, I'm beginning to savour life more than it is.
Money, where could it get me? Many places indeed.
Happiness, it'll bring me further than any other things can.
19 years, I finally understood life alittle more.
Keep it coming, keep me learning.

Lord, thanks for giving me a chance to live on.

Some events here and there.

2011-06-11T11:48:00.005+08:00

Cruise trip..

Justin's birthday..
Mugging sessionssss at starbucks.

Justin's farewell...
Some awesome dinnerss and lepaksss session with my breast friend :)
Yihui's 18th.

Inspired

2011-06-01T01:58:00.002+08:00

I don't love studying, I hate studying. But I love learning, learning is beautiful. -Natalie portman

Sometimes in life you need one or two person that inspire you, no matter in words or by action because when I'm inspired, I aim to be like them and a powerful gush of motivation and positivity will run in me. Im blessed that I met a lot of nice adults that inspire me to be like them, successful and respected. What the future holds for me and what I can do to it, there're just 10 words for it, "if it is to be, it is up to me." this I shall learn that I'm in control and power of my own destiny, and hardwork is definitely gonna pay off well :)

He only helps those who helps themselves.
Good night :)

Sleep after this ;)

2011-05-27T02:28:00.002+08:00

This picture tells you what life is about..
Hello my dear "private" place, I'm feeling so drained from the workload school is giving me, but I believe I can pull through this well with willpower and of course, lord :)

Faith, a word I've been saying very often recently. I blogged I lost a ring a month ago? I found it a month later :) I told myself to hold onto faith that it'll be back, I'll find it and I did. It just prove to me that with faith, everything is possible. I'm trying to be better in all aspects, but some times I find myself getting worse after I got better. Irony? I guess I live too much by emotions and I've to learn better cos I'm no longer, that young.

Two more weeks and I'll break free for awhile, I more physically drained and mentally blocked.

I don't know anymore.

When all the songs I listen to applies to you, this is love.

2011-05-27T02:25:00.002+08:00

♥ You pull me in close, you throw me away, I keep coming back like a boomerang.

That awesome someone

2011-05-23T00:13:00.001+08:00

There's this person in my life that taught me no matter what happens, all that matters and will be there will be family. I never thought I could understand and appreciate this concept when I was younger but now I do. This person has shown me how great the love for family can be, and to realize this person taught me almost everything I'm today. I'm grateful for being taught by someone so outstanding and attractive ;) and I do wish you remain in my life and memory even if I'm not as important to you. Because you're like...

Godsend to me.
D.

Yesterday..

2011-05-14T02:13:00.000+08:00

Full stop.

My adorable godmama ♥

2011-05-07T19:24:00.001+08:00

You're the best I could ever have :)

When everything is fine.. and boring.

2011-05-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

Look up the stars, look how they shine for you..

Was on the bus, staring out of the window..pouring rain, raindrops sliding down, wondering how much I've grown up compare to the past. For all I know, once some feelings are gone, it'll never be back. On daily basis, I kept qnsing myself about everything, however, it seems to others I'm upset. Not even close, I was just thinking with my mind, no emotions attached to my thinking. I've been good, feeling good :)

School seems to be getting better day by day, hopefully god will just bless my this sem smooth and just let me soar. However, I've got responsibility now, thought I could just escape through my poly life. aww :(

Tomorrow is the cursed day of the week...

So many to name, but yet..it might just be for show.

2011-05-02T01:37:00.002+08:00

Truth and reality are cruel, but thats life.

THE 10 MOST IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE, IN ORDER. (besides family)
this would be too much to say at a place so accessible..

Anything but loud

2011-04-30T13:57:00.002+08:00

Swagg is about personality, not materials. Don't let the things you own own you.
School started for a week, my new class seems..unacceptable? I guess its the first week so I shall have more patience and observation. No judgment yo! As I said, it started for a week, I was suppose to be more relax this week (especially with very awesome timetable), however, I'm packed like hell with social activities. Good or bad, I've got no idea! All I know was at least I've real great times with my friends, like everyday to be exact.

I lost a ring that is very important to me 3days back? Set me depressed, lost faith and hope for that very moment, crying and searching like some crazyass. I hasn't lost hope it is already totally gone now but I've stopped whining. At some point of life, we lose things and people, whining will not solve anything, if we want some thing or someone back, we gotta fight for it, hold on to faith, hope and trust that we'll have it back. And if, we really can't have it back anymore, we shall move on.. life don't stop for no one :)

Respect

2011-04-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

You've taught me to become better instead of bitter in all situation.

Appreciated or did I stop expecting?

2011-04-24T02:41:00.002+08:00

Lonely or not? Definitely not.
Had a conversation with a friend..
Friend: "People always treat you as important thats why you'll never understand the feeling of being unappreciated!"

One thing I won't deny I'm definitely blessed and am grateful I've very awesome people around me who treats me as important, not a few but quite alot of them. But appreciated? This is a word that I used to emphasize alot, I used to think there're certain people who don't appreciate me but to end up realising, it may not be the case. Different people show their appreciation in different ways, I used to thought through words was the only way, but no. I stop feeling anyone unappreciate me, I don't know is it because I stop expecting or is it really true that I'm really very much appreciated by everyone around me. No matter what, I'm thankful I'm such a happy girl with no more issues with "appreciation" :)

Enjoying my snacks, green tea and some heart talks with close friends on msn. School starting tomorrow, hopefully 2.1 will be nice to me just like its' timetable.

With love,
C.

23.

2011-04-23T04:36:00.002+08:00

Dear god, the only thing I asked of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away.
And how I miss someone to hold, when hopes begin to fade.

Melody running

2011-04-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

The higher the pedestal you put someone on, the higher the fall if they let you down.

Love is beautiful..

2011-04-20T03:32:00.002+08:00

I'm warning you, if you take one step closer, I'm never letting you go.

I need you, tonight.

2011-04-15T02:46:00.007+08:00

Sometimes we waste too much time to think about someone who doesn't even think about us for a second.
A post before I head for cruise later, just in case I die on cruise or something.. I love you babies :*

I tweeted something like "The amount of frens that is impt to me can be counted using a hand, as long as you're not in that hand, u cn just fuck off b4 giving me crap."

I didn't tweet that out of anger or anything, I guess I'm like that now. I believe people come and go but I finally an able to let go easily, without much thoughts. My mum always tell me, having a few true best friends is better than having a lot of rubbish friends. I guess I'm beginning to understand and bring it into my life. I definitely don't have a lot of rubbish friends but all I wanna do is to keep tight with my few best friends :)

Definition of friends: "Someone whom I hang out with, follows my twitter and know every little movement of mine because of twitter."

Definition of best friend from my dictionary: "Someone whom I talked my heart to and I'll shed tears infront of. Someone who loves me at my weakest and cheer with me at my best. + point above."

At the same time, I guess you made me realise I can live without anyone because you were the only person I thought I couldn't live without at a moment of my life, but I'm happily alive, isn't I? It was a lesson well learnt, and I'm still thankful for having you in my memories and I guess we just isn't meant to be. You, were my strongest support.

okay, goodnight ;)

\m//

2011-04-13T02:15:00.002+08:00

Yeah man, where is your confidence?
Today is a day I'm finally home early! (early as in before 12am!) So..hows life? I guess mine was FUCKYEAH-AWESOME! Returning home in the wee hrs (or rather morning..), wake up around late afternoon, evening.. then head out againzz and the dopecycle repeats. School starting for me soon, like 2weeks time? *Sigh*

Hitting the club tml,
I like it like it, comon' ;)

My mother fuckin' theory.

2011-04-11T05:57:00.000+08:00

Friends with everyone, peace with every bitch™
- Goddope C.

sleep.

"few" pictures of the 365 :)

2011-04-11T01:29:00.008+08:00

Hello mother nature.
Hungryyyy'..
The flowers YH got us :)
:)
waddups? The sky!
Playful kid! tsk.
I can even make flowers dope!:)

D for ..... :)
Dotted heart, damn dope right!!
Star...
A for Amanda! A for my resuts :D
Infinity, placed right after your name.
DOPE IS ME.
Supposingly 'crossroad' :)
smoochies and huggies ROFL.
I'm so cute no?

The heart damn nice!!

Narcissist at work.

MORE PICTURES ON FACEBOOK. ONLY TWO ALBUMS THAT ARE NOT LOCKED ON MY FACEBOOK.

Stop.

2011-04-09T04:37:00.002+08:00

Pondering, wondering.
4.40am, unable to get to bed.
Toss and turn, thoughts begin to feel my mind, those that are accepted in this world. So I was wondering, isn't it about time I should do something to my life? 19years old this year, I isn't young anymore. Maybe, just maybe, I need my surrounding environment and myself to stable down, stop having my temporary high and fun. All the fun I've for the past 6yrs, now I hope for a peaceful next 6yrs. Even if my feelings can't be found anymore that doesn't mean I shld screw my life with it right? Shall I, just for once, learn that I should behave like a human being?

For a moment, you must be thinking if I'm insane. Yes man, am I? Will I wake up tomorrow and still acknowledge the existence of this post? I've no idea. Real nights make people wonder, maake reality come alive and make people real.

This is my life

2011-04-07T03:27:00.003+08:00

Self expression is not a mental illness, it is a form of art.

Where have my seriousness run to? On my two feet laughing when I've a question to chew :B Why so serious? Oops, back to first sentence.

I'm rockin my life~

2011-04-06T03:23:00.003+08:00

Your fav kid in town

Don't ask me where I get my mother fuckin' confidence, don't ask me where I've got my guts. I've it for fun, I live only once. I don't depend on anybody because that is no longer me. No weakshit, not like you, I don't run. I don't capture heart, I wait for it to come.

What is my life about?
Nothing but fun. I need no one.

Oops, I take back.. maybe I need some.
like my BREAST friend, my little kiddo, and my goddope godmum :)

April events..

2011-04-04T17:00:00.005+08:00

First april, HAPPY APRIL FOOL! :)
This year is definitely the first year I even bother to waste time pranking people, 1st and 3rd prank wasn't planned at all, just wanna see if even anybody will get tricked. However, my 2nd prank was bloodyhell dope and managed to trick more than 30 people ^^

"Something urgent to discuss with you, call me *IMH NO* phone low batt "

ROFL, I can't believe my friends actually have so much trust in me and all of them called and end up scolding me..."FUCK U LAH" through texts. ROFL! Dope are my friends, friends are my dope.

Second april, GEM6 Day.
Went down to bugis to get balloonS down to tampines alone. Met Amanda, Celeste and Joey over there then off we went down to TP to meet Sherica for Gem 6! It was good, my dancer friends are awesome :)

My awesome people :)
Balloons :)
My surprise from a sweet gal :D
Third April, NEW HOUSE DAY!
Went down to Punggol flat to take a look, then to grandma house. Home sweet home then to yishun to ton till today morning :)

MY LIFE IS FUCKIN' SCREWED,
but I love it this way, you get me?

#random
What if you know I can actually leave without you?

Patron tequila~

2011-03-31T02:28:00.002+08:00

Road is the sex!
Happy birthday to my dad yesterday! For those who followed my twitter and facebook would have already know the present I got him was a tie, which symbols a promise I made to him I'll study hard in poly and get into an university. I would want him to wear that tie to my graduation ceremony for university and take a family portrait together. He is important to me :') Stayed up to write my message to him in chinese at 4am, I actually used google translator ROFL. My message got my family crying, HAHAHAHA. I'm awesome :)

#random thought.
Does my nightlife really indicate that I'm a wild? I don't get it. I actually have a crazy fond for nightlife, no matter just by hanging out till morning or clubbing and such. I don't see myself as bad just because I club and drink. I realise the reactor is actually more on smoking, but who cares? My life, I'm happy with it :)
Even if those who don't club,drink,smoke or flirt. It doesn't make you a fucking saint! Just a boring dude :)

Quote of the day!

Never be dependent anyone in this world . Because even your shadow leaves you when you’re in the dark.

NEX!

2011-03-30T03:15:00.004+08:00

fucking awesome milk tea you know!!!!!
heee.. aint we cute? (:
HAHAHAH really love this pictureeee!!

Zhiyuan and Zheng yuan!
my two cutie!!
Random Nex dinner with my awesome TPclique with the absence of AaronAndrewAng picture because he arrived late, and total absence of Weisze, Terry, Chowlin and Melissa! But we still have our normal talks, catching up with each other, feels good! :D This clique actually formed only after a year, but the thing is..the love is great. We accept each other for who we are, we've fun, we make big plans, we go all out for fun, we study hard and we stay together. Even though it is only a year that we known each other, but they really make me feel we're together as one! (:

Reason for lack of proper posts, because I'm too lazy to bring my camera out and I update every single thing on twitter. This holiday is actually a very good break for me to think through things before working hard for school again. I guess at certain time, we just see reality slightly too well and realise how harsh it is to us, but we're born to be brave, so bring it on :)

C getting stronger! ;)

After 1yr 8mths, OVER IS OVER.

2011-03-28T22:24:00.001+08:00

Even if they turn the lights off, the show is going on~

I'M MOTHER FUCKIN' OVER YOU FOR REAL, JY. \m/

My mixed emotions :)

2011-03-26T04:01:00.004+08:00

Hi baby♥
Shall conclude my day with words, not sentences.
Laughters.Movies.Tears.Friends.Awesome.Car.Midnight.Popcorn.Food.Slack.Pictures.
Coke.Touched.Wife.Love.Bored.Lonely.Family.Dev.You.Seniors.CCA.Kids.Misses.
Clean.Learning

This is the mixture of my 24hrs :)

I still think it is possible

2011-03-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

We ignore each other and try to pretend the other person doesn't exist, but deep down we know it wasn't suppose to end like this.

P/S: #Just saying.

不屑

2011-03-22T03:04:00.000+08:00

I love.....

2011-03-21T20:20:00.001+08:00

NIGHT RAIN :D

Narcissistic :D

2011-03-17T21:43:00.003+08:00

AWESOME WEATHER.AWESOME RESULT.AWESOME DAY! :D

2yrs...

2011-03-16T00:56:00.003+08:00

Alive or dead?
Sometimes, I feel that I've changed so much that it scares me, I just become so unfeelings for people and things. I don't know if it is because I've learnt my lesson too well, it was hard on me I guess. Nowadays, I feel so dead on feelings, good or bad, I'm unable to make a clear-cut judgment to it.

Hopefully, I'll be alive again..
but maybe, not so soon.

Rockstar hair :D

2011-03-14T13:06:00.007+08:00

When I decided to go crazy, my hair will be my first target. Hence, that day, with craziness in my head, I went to town with this hair....
*dopelikethis*
Went to Suntec for NYNY with @HELLOAMANDA_, after that was one fullerton to slack for the night w starbucks and performance from MBS, shall let the pictures speak :D

Off went @HELLOAMANDA_, wanted to rebel/butter, but end up lepaking outside butter till 3am with @Casandraloveyou.

Life is too boring, shall not blog about the 3days of work at IT Fair, meet both super nasty and nice people just from workplace itself -___-''' But still, thanks for those dropping by to give loveeeeeeeeee :D

Human...what are we?

2011-03-12T13:51:00.002+08:00

Are we all weird?
People killing people, natural disaster killing people. Are we game enough to live on? None of us are ever contented, are we asking for too much? Do we always need a major hit to wake us up. Life, is it invisibly fragile? If disasters were to hit us, will we die in regret because we didn't treasure yesterday enough?

Pride, how much does pride weigh? If we were to be surrounded by the midst of pain in Japan, will we be better at expressing ourselves? Will we ever learn that we've to treasure? Human, what are we?

Events events events...

2011-03-09T19:04:00.004+08:00

Sun - 6th March
Family BBQ
Was pouring when we reached semb.park, hence, I suggested everybody to wait in the car and one person stand at the pit to take care of the foods and wait for the rain to stop. In the end, I'm the only one in the car, blasting music and playing poker till rain stop :) From the bbq, I concluded that, my aunt and kids are irritating and cheena people are major turned off :X Still, I enjoyed (cause all I did was eat, Eat, EAT!!!!)

Mon - 7th March
Nothing much besides eating Sakae buffet with @mmomz and @weidee_MU over at tamps! Came home and poker whole night off :D:D

Tues - 8th March
Poker-d whole day, night went to buy pink pearl bubble tea over AMK because I was craving for some :X following through midnight.....

was suppose to meet @NICOLETTEMAH at around 1130pm to head to Changi Aiport, she texted me the bus plate number was TIB6280, hence one 858 came, and the bus plate number was TIB628U, for a moment I was shocked and I look into the bus and I didn't see her. Therefore, I didn't board, and she was on the bus!!!!!! She called me and I totally laughed about it instead of worrying (cause we actually wanted to take the last bus and at that moment, we're not sure if it is the last bus!) Hence, I laughed like crazy alone at the bus stop hoping there is another 858, and phew* there is, if not, I would have to cab down to Changi -____-'''

Wednesday - 9th March
Hence, we met at airport and lepak from night till morning because we're sending @simplicityedwin off for a 5weeks study trip :D Some pictures....
reading a very meaningful book...
heres a page of it :)
We went to Cheers and were amused that Jay Chou is on the of Reader's Digest
If you're walking alone, continue walking....
Some shot :)
@Simplicityedwin came around 5am+
hehehehee..
Very cute eh..
Hello breast friends :D

Pokerface :D

2011-03-07T20:10:00.002+08:00

Newest addicted!
10♠ J♠ Q♠ K♠ A♠

F.r.e.e.dom:D

2011-03-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

Hence, 11:30am, 3rd March 2011 marks my freedom!!!!!!!!!!!! from year1! hahahaa..

My post-exams party is definitely great, from good lunch, to gym, swim, home cooked, movie, stayover, "vlog", mcbreakfast, swim again! :D Few pictures!! Random end, bye!

Yes, crap people, out please.

2011-02-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Too positive? or maybe learning how to treat myself better.

2011-02-26T10:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is over, it is a different day
If anything matters and its bad, it shall remain in yesterday. There is a reason why some things affect us, not because it is important, but because we let it matters, we give it a choice to hurt us. However, how many things/people really is important enough that we allow them to occupy our time that will never be back, should let it matters and hurt us? Not much. Don't waste our fragile heart on people that is not worth afterall.

Life very much goes on :D

Alone? Yet so not lonely :D

2011-02-23T18:14:00.002+08:00

Over at my 2nd home, mugging.
#Random short post.
Was mugging over at yishun starbucks when friend.no1, @GERMAINGOH, dropped by with honey lemon to give me support for studying.... later came @B_ONNX who smelled super nice to say HI! hehehee alone mugging? but not so lonely :)

Thank you friends,
with love, C.

爱你·离开你

2011-02-23T03:50:00.001+08:00

爱你所以离开你爱放进行李流浪我的记忆

Life is a repeat cycle for now..

2011-02-23T00:53:00.002+08:00

Life is either a daring advantage or it's nothing
At this hr on a weekday, I'm mugging my ass off, or rather, I've been mugging my ass off for the past 2weeks? No club, no life, just self discipline everyday with books over at different places. Went slightly over-stress some days before those awesome people in my life chill me down and make me better :) The bad thing now, my body clock is screwed because I studied overnight, and my 5 papers starting from friday are all in the morning :(

Side track, I love how peaceful nights are :)

Is the "grass" greener on the other side?

2011-02-21T12:45:00.002+08:00

L I F E

I asked myself if I'm the quiet soul in class that is so invisible, how does it feels like? If I dress so normally that nobody will take a second look at me, nothing about going for brands, how does it feels like? I've no confidence and my social life is just one group of friends, just one, how does it feels like? My parents' expect me to reach home by 10pm and I've never stayed out late before, how does it feels like? When I'm on the bus, I just sit through out the whole trip, without music,twitter or anything, how does it feels like? I'm never expose to club,alcohol,racing,smoking....all I know is eating at food-court and have no fond/experience on all these temporary high, how will my life be like instead? My hobby shall be playing game on facebook, my phone will be just a normal non-wireless phone, I've no psp, dslr, ipod or anything, just ordinary life, how does it actually feels like? I don't go for leisure at all, my friends are similar like me, how does it actually feels like to really live a very simple life?

P/S: Just wondering, will life really be simple just because we live simple?
P/S P/S: Still very satisfied with life currently though ;)

Ballerina who loves Bboy (Singapore)

2011-02-20T10:18:00.003+08:00

Main actor and actress!

One word: DOPE!
Was over at esplanade to catch Ballerina who loves bboy yesterday, it totally make me go "WOW" through out the whole show, they don't come easy, they come with skills, they shock you. I've got to admit this is one of the most breath-taking dance shows I've ever watched, left me breathless. The plot of the story is alright, but the rest of the remaining is mind blowing, their dancers are too hot and too good! Damn, I swear onf of the best experience, thank god I didn't stayed at home to face books (nah, not facebook -.-) !

Legit to them!

Time is up, moving on, memories kept, well done.

2011-02-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

The people that stayed with me for this 1year :')
Hence, today "sorta" marked the last day of my year1, WOW, can't believe I've actually entered and survived poly for one year already. Anyway, so I'm to part with my year1 class, 1B08. Before I entered Poly, I kinda thought I might not survive it and I might just hate my class cause I've such bonded class in CCHY for 5years, but unexpected surprise, I meet really nice and awesome people. I don't know how to say the type of feeling they gave me, but I felt that they changed me in this 1year too and they really make school enjoyable for me, everyday filled with laughter. When I've problems, I'll talk to some of them and feel better, though we only know each other for a year, but I kinda thought we really make differences in each other lives. Hopefully, after today, we'll still stay close and bonded.

I love 1B08, including the careperson, very much :')
Thanks for leaving good memories in my life.

Awesome day ;D

2011-02-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today I met up with this girl (okay we meet up randomly every now and then too!) at AMK to catch a movie name "Just Go With It"! Seriously the movie is quite good, lots of laughter, make me forget my tiring and stress soon-coming-exam life :P Anyway so before that we went to ...
PEPPERLUNCH!
for some light dinner cause I had anything till 5pm+, coincidentally bumped into some cchyians and dunros. After movie, brought @HELLOAMANDA_ to my favorite bubble tea shop to grab bubble tea and home sweet home! :D

I'm living by the quote #workhardplayhard much! Will be watching "Ballerina who loves B-boy" tomorrow, excited much :D

Right indeed! :)

2011-02-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

The show goes on

2011-02-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

You know at many times in life, we hope time freeze..no matter for a second, min, hr, day, month or years, we know it is impossible but we still hope because at that moment, we really love the things that is given to us in our life. Now to realise, why are we hoping? We should actually be creating, making the best out of time, not hoping for it to be prolong.. because at the end of the day, if we don't treasure when we've it, why will we treasure when we prolong it? :)

End of #randomthought.

把自己关闭..

2011-02-16T22:52:00.004+08:00

今晚，我要和我的朋友们说对不起，对不起我这么没有责任的不见，让你们担心。有的时候，心很烦，心很乱，不管多好的朋友，我都不知道要说什么好，不知道跟谁说好，如何说出什么是痛，连自己都不知道。我不是在趁强，我只是学会把自己伪装的比较好，不想把以前的我带到现在... 所以逃避.

开始觉得自己也没有这么坚强了。。

;D

2011-02-14T21:39:00.001+08:00

Happy valentines :)

2011-02-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

To all the people who make give me love this year ♥

Born this way gaga's 2011

2011-02-11T21:33:00.003+08:00

Don't hide yourself in regret, just love yourself and you're set :)

This is why we should live and love ourselves, because we're
born this way :)

Finally, time to catch some air!

2011-02-10T18:09:00.002+08:00

There are times when life unexpectedly hands
you something so amazing, you feel like you’re in a dream but no matter how many
times you pinch yourself, you don’t wake up. It’s moments like these that makes
life worth living because no matter how hard some days are, these miracle
moments lift you right back on your feet :)

CNY - 3rd day.

2011-02-06T15:03:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was finally a day spend with friends :)

Firstly, we went over to Eileen's house for lunch, which I turned up later thinking all of them will be late WAHAHAHAHAH.. /epicfailed.

After that we headed to godmummy's place to bai nian :)

Decided to head to NEX for dinner at Lai lai -idkwhat-, the milktea is DAMN good ^^

After that headed over to erina's hse to gambleeeee,lepak,chitchat. Anyway, this year is definitely not my gambling year lor :(

Will you hold it against me?

2011-02-04T00:11:00.001+08:00

Hate to stare but you’re winning.
And they’re playing my favorite song

Cny eve - liondance w nam shao.

2011-02-03T23:47:00.003+08:00

Awesome eve over at Nam Shao looking at them liondance, it has become a yearly eve thing. Weather yesterday wasn't that nice, kept raining stop raining stop, difficult for them to liondance and move around. Hide in the car and blasted 987 when it rained :) Had coke on the car, firework display right above me, best way to begin my new year :D On my way there, and back, my mind was greatly filled with thoughts..hmmmm...

P/S: More pictures, refer to facebook :)

Good to be back home ♥

2011-02-02T18:21:00.002+08:00

CCHY'11 - BACK HOME FOR REUNION.
Nothing much to say except I still love that place just as much, the place whereby I found people who love me and vice versa :) I want this me to remain, the person who love everyth from the past, and not forget.

CCHY, my everything from the past ♥

And I ask myself why?

2011-01-31T01:45:00.002+08:00

At the end of the day, I realise I don't have much feelings left for things from the past.

MINDBLOWN!

2011-01-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

30 EXTRAORDINARY THINGS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW:
“Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.” Roald Dahl
1. A baby is taking its first few steps without falling.
2. Two people somewhere in the world, are falling in love.
3. Somewhere, someone is admiring a breathtaking sunrise, and somewhere else, a surreal sunset.
4. A soldier of sorts is diligently fighting the fight so you don’t have to
5. Someone who suffered from a severe injury last year is back on their feet.
6. A small group of people are building something that will soon make the impossible possible.
7. Somewhere on Earth a double rainbow is stretched from one end of the horizon to the other.
8. One of the next Billboard-chart-topping musical artists is patiently rehearsing in her garage.
9. A piece of literature is being written that will eventually change your perspective on life.
10. A friend is helping a friend rise above thoughts of suicide.
11. People of various religious backgrounds are in temples, churches, mosques and other places of worship praying, wholeheartedly, for world peace.
12. An elderly couple is celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary.
13. Two best friends are laughing so hard that they aren’t even making any noise.
14. A firefighter is running into a burning building to rescue a perfect stranger.
15. Someone in your hometown genuinely wants to be your friend.
16. A new mom is lying in a hospital bed and holding her baby twins for the very first time.
17. Someone is taking a shower and singing happily at the top of their lungs.
18. There is someone out there who smiles when they think of a specific moment they once shared with you.
19. An alcoholic just celebrated one full year of sobriety.
20. Volunteers in major cities all over the world are working at homeless shelters caring for those who are less fortunate than themselves.
21. A high school athlete just broke their own personal record.
22. Two teenagers just received their very first kiss ever from each other.
23. Someone is hugging a friend who desperately needs it.
24. Someone just placed their spare change in the charity collection cup at the grocery store.
25. A small group of friends are sitting around a table sharing funny stories and cheerfully reminiscing about the good old days.
26. Honest people are working for various government entities to help protect your basic human rights and civil liberties.
27. An emergency room surgeon is in the middle of saving his patient’s life.
28. Someone is holding the door open for the person behind them.
29. Someone out there is missing you and looking forward to your next visit.
30. We are reminded that extraordinary things happen to ordinary people, and that there is beauty and wonder in everyday life.

It is just a song~

2011-01-30T00:18:00.001+08:00

I feel wonderful because I see the love light in your eyes.And the wonder of it all is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

Hectic week over, phew*

2011-01-29T11:54:00.002+08:00

*insert picture by referring to facebook yourself!*

So what have I been busy about? Projs, tests, projs projs projs, quiz, presentationx2. Had a real hectic week, got crank and tired at many moments in school however half of it is over by now :) 2more weeks left to chiong and I'm all done w projs, which means my exams coming right after. Anyway, had a good time w my classmates over at melissa's condo to celebrate ah teck birthday :) I love how fun my class boys areeeeeeeeeeee and how bitchy we girls are :X

I'm feeling so good now because it is weekend :) Should I head out??? Hmmm.. maybe staying home is a better choice :) Cozyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (^(oo)^)

Take care peepos :)

:(

2011-01-26T20:57:00.000+08:00

TIREDNESS REACHED PEAK.

need a short getaway :(

Blessed.

2011-01-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

Tough time don't last, tough people do.
Had such a long day, test at freaking 7pm when I ended school at 1pm? Ohwells, by 7pm my mind is already kinda screwed and definitely starting to crank. Anyway, hope my A don't fly away. As I said, I was feeling cranky and tiredddd, reached home at around 9.30pm? WTS, and I still have morning classes tml however, I kinda got uncranked cause I've awesome close friends showing concern through text to me while I'm on my bus trip back and thankful for my family care when I'm back home. Feeling awesome again with some tiredness. I guess I shall head to bed soon and hopefully have a better tomorrow.

Goodnight xoxo :)

Enjoyment.

2011-01-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

22nd @ Flhair
Had my haircut yesterday, my hair just have to grow so fast -___-''' 40$/haircut and Calvin already gave me discount, however, DAMN SATISFIED WITH MY HAIRSTYLE NOW :) The picture above can't really see, but my behind is damnnnnn dopeee :DD Anyway, got the shock of my life when @GERMAINGOH and I bumped into Kenneth Ng -.- Had bubbletea again yesterday, before heading to SSC for Astons and came back to khatib mac to meet @Casandraloveyou to mug till late night :)

Today, off to SSC starbucks to mug with @HELLOAMANDA_ than to ECP with family for picnic and bonding time. Wanted to have dinner at Bedok 85 but no parking for both cars, hence, chompchomp instead :D
All I'm feeling now is, like a fat now, like a fat now.
Presentation tml and tues, tues night tests. Can just kill me, hate school now :(

P/S: I love my dad.

Bubble tea rocks!

2011-01-22T10:40:00.004+08:00

So my yesterday was proj meeting, lesson than meet @MINGSHUANG for some chilling session. Randomly dropped at Paya Lebar for awesome prawn noodles ^^ before heading to bishan to get some stuffs than to AMK for bubble tea!!!!!!! I swear bubble tea rocks so much over AMK, and no I'm NOT talking about Koi!! Anw, we lepak-d, bitch, gossip about a lot of peopleeeee :X At least, I admit :)

I shall let the pictures talk!
The very awesome BBT with pink pearl!

What a weekend with people filled at home :( Hoping for some personal time and peace to do work.. sian! I guess I should head out to my favourite place to do work :(

Shagged.

2011-01-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

NEED.A.BREAK FROM SCHOOL.

hate project submission month.

Well spent day.

2011-01-18T18:29:00.003+08:00

Last time I used to be emo then I decided to stop and start being awesome
Tday was well spent though it was kinda screwed up at first, struggle to wake up to attend lesson, when I was about to step out of house, my awesome marketing teacher texted to inform "Lesson is cancelled" and thats my only lesson of the day -___-''' and suppose to have proj meeting in school, lucky cancelled. If not I would have to travel down to TP for proj meeting only -.- Decided to have lunch at buddy with my sis-in-law before heading down to yishun library for mugging session, 3hrs of intense accounting on my own is DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN awesome! Motivating drive!! :) :) Came home, rest, brought Jayden to play water over at "yishun barrage", now home with awesomeee dinner awaiting for me :)

I'm living by the quote of "work hard, play hard" now. Maybe the behind should be party hard instead, but ohwells, its okay :)

Energy level, 0 today.

2011-01-17T20:13:00.001+08:00

Felt as if I never felt more tired in my life

DROPDEAD IN BED..

Looking back makes me learn how to behave when I look forward, it is good :)

2011-01-16T16:48:00.002+08:00

Time bring things away, so why not treasure now?
Skipped 100times single leg for both legs, and went running ^^ ultimate aim is get my 45kg beforeeeee CNY :D

Side track abit: I was looking through my photobucket, found many old pictures, laughing at most, sad for some, wondering what bullshit I contain when I was younger..all is good still :D Saw some past r/s photos, wonder how are those people (LOL!), saw some efforts I put in on designing for some people/events, wonder where did my passion go. I was emoing over the most simple stuffs back then, but I guess thats what make me strong like today :) I love my past, even if it was dark, I learnt.

I've the tendency....

2011-01-16T11:40:00.001+08:00

to go on a nostalgic ride every single sunday morning :(

Random jackpot hit.

2011-01-15T15:19:00.002+08:00

Why is it that people have to die to show us how important it is to live?
I look up to the window, and I see raindrops, sudden downpour. How am I feeling on a saturday afternoon? All good and cozy at home. What am I hoping most for now? All my love ones are fine and happy.

#GodblessAustralia.
I thank above that my dear one is back in Singapore.
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Can't really remember much where have I been to this whole week, but I definitely didn't have such a good one, can remember some moodswings at night but 'm fine still :) Yesterday was random to meet up with @HELLOAMANDA_ for dinner, had Thai express than dessert :) Headed home, than some gal wants chicken wings from khatib, so I head out, buy wings, go chongpang eat tauhuay with her. Sent her home to realise I got no more last bus till khatib, only to yishun -____- what luck, end up cabbing home.. its' worth it though :)

Do it because you want to. Because its' fun, because it makes you happy.